Saturday, November 26, 2011

Keeping Up

Here it is November 24, Thanksgiving 2011, already.  In fact, the day is almost over.  We deviated from the traditional turkey dinner this year.  Instead, a green bean casserole with fresher ingredients, pork chops, apple dressing, and cornish hens were served.  Along with an experiment for dessert, cherry jello and chocolate  pudding pie, all were stuffed and satisfied  .  There were only three of us: my oldest son and my third son and me.  I'm not sure what is going on with the other two. Since my goal has been not to let negative thoughts into my mind, it's better I don't think about it.  Needless to say, I was a bit disappointed, but it is what it is.

I've decided to visit my mother and sister in Southern California in early December.  I miss them and we can have a great visit.  My mom and I laugh a lot when we get together.  Since my dad passed away earlier this year, I don't really know what to say.  However, just listening to her is good.  She misses having the conversations with daddy.  They did talk a lot.  Near the end, he slept a lot and wasn't always "with us."  I'll miss seeing him.  The house won't feel the same.  They were married 67 years. 

I asked God to give me a sign.  At least I think I did.  I don't like to do that, but I didn't want to think about daddy being somewhere else except with the Lord.  Not too long after that, and when I had forgotten about the request, I received some books from my sister for my birthday.   She attached a note to one of them stating that as she read about "hearing music", "it got to her."  She stated that daddy was hearing music a couple of days before he died.  It caused me to get emotional and cry even though I had not yet read the book.  The Holy Spirit reaches you at unexpected times and in unexpected ways often.  That is one of those times.  I knew God gave me "a sign" that daddy is with Him.

I often think my prayers are not heard, even though I know they are.  The bible tells me they are, but sometimes I want to give up because the answers seem so long in coming.  It is hard to wait on the Lord, isn't it?  On Sunday, this coming Sunday, when our worship ministry, the H.S. Movers, leads the church service for a nursing home, one of the other members and I will be sharing a message on the importance of prayer.  I will certainly share what I just shared with you along with other answers to prayer and its sustaining power.

I will leave you with this word from the Lord:

2 Cor. 5:8-We are confident and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Is This A Test

Is this a test?  I am feeling dejected, rejected and unloved right now.  The trip I was planning keeps getting postponed for one reason or another.  Now, it is off completely.  Good side is that it saves me money.  Money that I can put into my emergency fund, or save for a new bed.  Or send to my grandchild.  Lots of good uses.  The disappointment was almost too much to bear today.  I wanted so badly to see my family in So Cal.

I spent the day cleaning out closets, rooms and anything I could get my hands on, until my energy ran out.

My lesson for today:  It is NOT all about me.  It IS  all about the Lord.  Frankly, I couldn't make it without Him.

Phil. 4: 6:


Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
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